this is one of those nights where i just really dont feel appreciated. again. its frustrating; i dont think i'm a saint, i just want someone to recognise that i think and try for other people.
its weird because i feel like i'm about to cry, but there are no tears coming out. maybe its because the feelings of disappointment outweigh the sadness.
barb is right; i need to surround myself with people that will reciprocate. but what can i do?
sometimes i feel stupid; i've heard from so many adults that college is supposed to be the best 4 years of my life. there are people that have it harder than me; but i am definately not having the best years of my life. maybe its because i'm spoiled and stupid- i think the older i get the more disappointed i am with how things are going.
i know, right? how vague!! no one knows what im talking about- i dont know whats going on either; i have no idea why these feelings persist. maybe i should just be happy that i'm alive and not starving.
removal. eventually ill get the hang of it.
i want a hug.