happy 44 month to us yesterday.not much has happened recently. my grampa is home, and thats....fun. i mean i feel bad that i dislike him staying here, but i do. hes very....critical of things.
last night jeffrey and i rewatched fushigi yugi-at least parts of it.
i forgot how addictive an anime it is. 5 years ago i had the biggest crush on tamahome.
it was so bad that i used to stick my friends randome sketches of him into my journals and into my binders at school like the cool kid i am.
michaels parents are willing to pay for a plane ticket so that i can go with them to see him in the next three weeks-which is awesome and all, but i dont know how to ask my dad.
i dotn even know if i will. not because i dont want to see him, really, becasue lord, everyone knows ive fallen so hard for him, i am just , as much as a i love him, scared shitless of my dad.
i cant wait for mom to come home. i wonder what her eyes look like now. she had some kind of surgery on them to lift her lids up so that she could see better. i hope she still looks the same. i think one of the scariest things is if you can no longer recognise your parents. its a day i hope will never i never have to see.
my rent is due soon. someone remind me- please? becasue i am forgetful. because that is my nature. becasue ive been like that since i remember.
speaking of apartments, apparently there is someoen living in our apartment in champaign. right now. rent free. and barb cant reach him, and neither can i- asshole. i guess im just going to keep calling him non stop.
im RIDICULOUSLY good at that. there was this one time when i coudlnt reach michael and so, jsut called him non stop for an hour or so. cuz you know, im cool and i have a life. haha he calls me back WTF JOANNE 42 MISSED CALLS?!! yeah i can be hella obnoxious, so beware steve. pay us the fuck back for living in our apartment.
plus, we saw the electricity/heat bill which came out to be like $130. and honey, thats how much barb and my bill was during the wintertime when there wre blizzards and it was minus however degrees outside and we had the heater on full blast all the live long day.
what the FUCK are they doing?
whatever. i guess we had it badly planned, this whole summer sublet thing. next year, well do better.
last night i had the strangest dream. i was with michael, only about halfway through he stopped looking like michael, he got really fat and really tall. only, it was michael. isnt it strange how dreams do that? in my dreams each person has a story to their life and for some reason i-in my dream- will always know that story without the person having told me . anyways, michael was really fat and tall in my dream and we ran across his ex-gf in a field and then i got kidnapped my slave traders. only it wasnt scary.
actually, this is beginning to sound stupid all typed out. well just take my word for it-it was really bizarre and totally worth tlaking about when i woke up.
i have to go to the dmv today, to renew my permit.
i swear, i must be the oldest person to not have a license. so pathetic.
anyways, ill leave you with this.
YouKnowNoYouDont: u should scratch ur head more
YouKnowNoYouDont: it's cute
i love him and i cant wait to see him again. just one more month!!