i love being home!!
i havent even really been doing anything...its just nice to see people i love, and sleep in a place thats so familiar. not that i dont love my room at school, its just so...home here.
ive been spending a lot of time with my dad, and tonight my mom gets back so im pretty excited about seeing her for the first time in 4 months.
ahhh i know i have so much homework to be doing, but its hard to get really into it. i just want to roll around in the grass and smile at the flowers aroudn me and the pretty blue sky.

last night he sent me the sweetest text message.
it really upped my spirits and i was giddy all night.
one more test and then im going home!!

it was raining today.
raining, raining, pouring.
i wasnt snoring.
instead, i woke up really early to go see my 374 TA.
he was really nice but i think he might have thought i was dumb because i really dont understand the material. i hate simulation programs. its hard (sad face)
i cant wait to go home though.
im so tired of rank smells.
the stairwell that smells like pee.
the elevator that smells like cigarette smoke.
the smell of the south farms wafting through campus.
the rancid smell of someones food in the kitchen.
i jsut want to go home.
i havent gone to the gym in about three weeks and it makes me feel really gross, but theres no time to with all these tests over my head.
almost done. i have to keep telling myself that.
you know the one thing that makes today worse is that my sandals got wet.and if theres one thing i hate, its when my sandals get wet in dirty rainwater. its almost as disgusting as worms on the sidewalk.
rain brings yucky friends when it comes to visit.
i think i only like looking at rain from inside my room.

okay so i havent written in over a month.
its a little bit weird keeping two journals - especially if im more faithful to the other one.
ive been buried under exams and presentations, homework and the like. you know how it is. also, more disagreement in the house...really, its sad when you really begin to see the ugly in people- the kind that wont go away- its like a really bad soap opera but my attitude has become simply, ignore the problem in the most literal way possible.
on happier notes, barb and i went up to chicago a few weeks back just to chill in the windy city and of course to spend our parents' hard earned money on material things that only bring us momentary happiness. yay!!
this is us at the lego store being dinosaurs and scowling at the backwards walking girl from the gym.i dont know why, she just doesnt really like us. when we smile at her, she just stares at us.
maybe she needs a good break from school too!!
i cant wait to go home for thanksgiving- just one more week left!!
i had my BA 300 exam this morning (which im pretty sure i failed), but that means that i just have one more exam and two more homework assignements away from going home!!
its gotten a lot colder here, and i regret not taking more pictures of the fall leaves changing colour, but maybe ill catch a bit of it before it starts to snow.
my cwl teacher is so awesome. the other day he sent us an email telling us to listen to iron maiden's 666 number of the beast, hoping wed reach a crazy epiphany. he has awesome taste in music, films, and literature. too bad hes married (sad face)
time to study for my last exam!! (or watch southpark- you know, same thing)
i cant wait to go home!!! <3